Candy and Chocolate

もう、いろいろやってみるも、特にうまく行かないので、今quarterは暇人でいよう、と思い中。
待つときはおとなしく待つことにしよう。

亡くす物と手に入れるものは年々その割合を変えていって、気が付いたらぼろぼろ物が落ちていることに気づく。
と同時に、結構いろいろ貯めてたんだと感心もする。でも、率直に言って気持ちのいいものではない。
飴を1個拾ったらチョコが3個逃げて行く感じ。

で、そんな感じを表すと、こうなる。日本語版が手元にないので英語にて。

"Yeah. He said he had the feeling things were disappearing on him. I don't know what kind of things he meant. But whatever they are, sometime they're going to go. We shift around, so things can't help but go when that happens. They don't disappear until it's time for them to disappear. Like that dress you got on. In couple of years, it won't fit you, and you might even want to go on drives with me anymore. Can't helped. As they say, just go with the flow. Don't fight it."

"I'll always like you. That has nothing to do with time."

"Makes me happy to hear that, because I want to think so too," I said.

(366, Dance Dance Dance, Haruki Murakami)

この後もなかなかよいくだりが続く。

とにもかくにも、そういうことだなあ、と思う。
必死にやった結果、そしてこれからは、それもわかって必死にやるんだろうなあというのが
個人的にかっこいいと思う。それかただのあほなのか。

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I tried sometimes, but, I could not make it. So I’m free this quarter too and will keep it. What I need to do is to wait, I think.

When I think about what I lost and get, the more I getting old, the more I lose. The ratio between those two are changing year by year. Once I realized it, I know I lost a lot. In the mean time, I am impressed by what I got a lot before. But, frankly, it makes me feel bad. For example, when I get 1 candy; I lose 3 chocolates. What a sad story. If I express this transient feeling, it is the following.

"Yeah. He said he had the feeling things were disappearing on him. I don't know what kind of things he meant. But whatever they are, sometime they're going to go. We shift around, so things can't help but go when that happens. They don't disappear until it's time for them to disappear. Like that dress you got on. In couple of years, it won't fit you, and you might even want to go on drives with me anymore. Can't helped. As they say, just go with the flow. Don't fight it."

"I'll always like you. That has nothing to do with time."

"Makes me happy to hear that, because I want to think so too," I said.
(366, Dance Dance Dance, Haruki Murakami)

The sentence continues. If interested in this, check the book.

Anyways, I am really convinced by the sentences. As a result of working hard, we understand sense of mortality; then we still keep working hard, knowing this feeling. Hmmmm, it is cool or just idiot. What do you say?